Today

Just got home from chemo, and feel wiped out. Just want to lie down. Which I will, shortly. I am on ixempra every 3 weeks. Pray it works, and I can be rid of this...but as always, God's Will be done.

I received a very delightful & unexpected phone call last night. One of our foster kids called! Tyler!! We had him off & on for maybe a year? Anyway, it was delightful to hear from him. He did give me sad news, his mom was in a motorcycle accident last summer, and died. We became close & she was a good mom. Her kids adored her. We just lost contact over time... something I am going to work on so it won't happen.It was so good to hear from him!

For my grandma, Hazel, my sil, Betty, and Marlene, a dear friend:

God our Father,


Your power brings us to birth,

Your providence guides our lives,

and by Your command we return to dust.



Lord, those who die still live in Your presence,

their lives change but do not end.

I pray in hope for my family,

relatives and friends,

and for all the dead known to You alone.



In company with Christ,

Who died and now lives,

may they rejoice in Your kingdom,

where all our tears are wiped away.

Unite us together again in one family,

to sing Your praise forever and ever.



Amen.

2009 in a nutshell

I have been out for awhile, not thinking much about blogging, but its time to start. So, 2009 in a nutshell...then on with 2010!
January-February: Came in with a bang. I was back on Chemo, AGAIN, for a golf ball size mass under my left arm. It just didn't want to go away for some reason, and I was already sick of chemo. (Now all of this chemo business began in Feb 2003, when I was dx'd stage 4 Her2+ Breast Cancer) The rest of Jan was Doc apts, as well as playing with my babies (Lucy, Desi, & Mojo) I believe it was about this time Lucy got pregnant. Prayed they were Desi's puppies!!

March: Still on Chemo. Its working, but not as well as I would have hoped. I am still up running around, though :). April came down from Vancouver, Wa to visit for a week. She loved it & Wyatt did, too. They ended up moving here in August! Lucy had 5 babies on March 30th. 4 girls & 1 boy. we kept one for Wyatt, Sandy. The others were gone fairy quick! But no more for Lucy. She had to be fixed so I wouldn't stress as much.

April: Anthony & Blake became Catholic!!! I am so very proud of them. They did very well. I pray they live their life as they should. Of course, this was one of my many 'Proud moments.' The end of the month I went with Gail to a Woman's meeting for Church in Clarksville. I enjoyed it. Tagci sang for us the first night. She was beautiful!

May: I started a new chemo regiment after being sent to Sarah Cannon Cancer Center for a trial. I believe it was a Phase 1 trial. That meant much driving back & forth to Nashville, as well as scans & blood work...loads of them both! I did make it to a first annual SpringFest held by the Church in Shelbyville. Now that was fun! Plan on going again this year, too.

June-Aug: In all reality, my days were mostly filled with some sewing, and resting. Chemo seems to wear on me, until I just wear out completely. I have good days, but most are filled with naps :). After much prayer, I did decide to work on joining the Dominican Laity. 6 months of just a questioning-type stage, and I can make my first promises.

This brings us up to Aug-Sept, which is when I started this blog. I stopped chemo in Oct, and was told I was in Remission. Had a wonderful Thanksgiving with all the kids and felt pretty good. Made several batches of soap, which everyone loves....wish I could sell them, now....and continued my classes with the Laity.

Cliff & Tabatha moved out right after Thanksgiving to Murfreesboro. Tab had a job that was there and a long trip back & forth.

December: Dec 1st I saw Dr Gian. All was OK, and he again used the remission word. sounded nice, but I had had so many setbacks I was still a bit worried. Around the 9th, I had some left sided pain, and couldn't figure out what it was...well, I found this hard spot, and knew what it was. I called Dr Gian on the 8th, made an appointment for the 16th...had scans on the 18th, and saw him again on the 22nd. Verdict: Cancer, 3 spots, left side. I would be starting chemo, again on the 3th of Jan.
Christmas came & I found out Cliff & Tabatha were wanting to move back to Ohio. Talk about a shock! So between the chem, and my son, I was just a tab stressed. Right after Christmas, I found out they had put my grandmother in the hospital, and she wasn't eating. So, sometimes things do come in 3's....